back in the saddle?

Back at the pub again.  Haven't been here in ages, but after the first five minutes of "where have you been," and "the prodigal son returns," it was if I never left.  At least some things remain.

I only went because, well, I just needed to go somewhere...anywhere where there were people who say hello, and were friendly.  And the free drinks keep appearing in front of me.  And the shots - you can't forget the shots.

And she was right...evidently i'm somewhat attractive...there seem to be more woman than usual approaching me...must be that scent of despiration.  I haven't made the leap of going home with one yet, but I did let one pick up my tab there, and at the next bar...and buy me dinner.  I felt a little guilty at the end of the evening as I walked away, but not too much.

And there are the games I can play to amuse myself.  Tonight I won't pay for anything...either someone else will pay for drinks and dinner, or I'll take the emergency exit.  I guess sometimes I just need to know I still have the talent.

That, and calling the people in my address book...trying to at least pretend I have friends.  Unfortunately, it ends up like a bad retelling of that scene in The Matador - where he realizes it's his birthday and starts dialing.  And no one really wants to hear from him.

And who would want to hear from me?

I managed to make it home from the pub now, free tab, although I had 3-4 beers and 4-5 shots...I'm thinking a little music and then back out, into the breach.

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Yes..you ask...the tab was taken care of.  The dinner, well, that is to be delivered...so I assume I will have to spend the balance of the evening fending off advances.  It happens.  I developed it pretty well by now, although, left alone like this I can't think of why I should resist.  I wait and wait, for love, although the rational reason eludes me.

Rational reason really has little part in it, though.

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Yes..you ask...the tab was taken care of. The dinner, well, that is to be delivered...so I assume I will have to spend the balance